Love is giving someone the power to hurt you,but trusting them not to

yea i noe i am very sensitive and paranoid at every single ting..

i will check my hair or face when someone looks at me to see if there are like stuff on my face..and sumtimes i will check if i have zipped my pants or not..

i also get paronoid wit my FAT THIGHS..i am also very scared in putting on anymore weights..
i also get paranoid by checking if there are wrinkles on my face or i have white hair every morning..(i noe its still too early..lol)..
ya i noe sounds like a gal,but hey huys are getting more concern bout their looks now juz to keep on par wit gals..

these are Metrosexualism..and NOT Homosexualism..

i get very sensitive wit small stuff like getting ignored,shouted at..

and today i felt kinda hurt due to sumting dat happen in my CCA..
i juz feel like i am kinda the outcast in it la..imagine dat ur are asked and reminded to come at
1 20 to go to CDA..and u left the decoration of ur classroom halfway to quickly rush to hand in ur hmwk then rush down to get ready to set off only to see the van going away witout you and when u kol one of them to find out dat ur name is not on the list of ppl going..and ur not needed to go oready..

i juz felt like reacting dramatically when i heard dat but controlled as i was toking to my frend and i dun wanna embarass myself..i juz wish i could be appreciated more and its very embarassing having other ccas ppl or frends asking me why u never go wit the rest or watnot and me being a little kind having to make up excuses!!nevertheless,i still enjoyed myself wit the sec 3s playing and enjoying ourselves..we even took videos of ourselves..

Samira and Shadrina are fighting while i become the news broadcaster..lol..one more video is me in the fight oso..lol..only closest frend can view i guess since its quite embarassing..haha..

and so u noe i HATE Sppech Day Training even more!!like we will have another training tis Tues at 5 30 and will end at late 7 pm..like wtf!
watse my time ok Mr Peh!!

yaya..watever..
~shafiq~