sumtimes...i juz wish to dissapear from the face of the earth...i have long be patient with all the accusations that have beenn thrown towards me....sum of it are really very painfull....i juz cannot take it anymore....ppl juz say tings bout me as they wish and never spare a toght for my feelings...i tink sum of u reading tis might be feeling e same too rght....sumtimes even ur closest frends say bad tings bout u behind ur back....i juz cannot seem to trust anyone..except for god...
i heeded me mom's advice to be nice to everyone and hopefully they see the other side of u and stop gossiping and ruining ur good name....but it seems that the more i am nice towards them...the more worst their atiitude is towards me....i juz wish in e frst place that i have a gift to scan a good frend and a bad frend so i will not feel hurt.....sumtimes i juz wish dat i have no frends.....but i got to admit...i do have some good frends who stood by me in good times and bad...somtimes at night...tears juz roll down my cheeks as i am lying down on bed...i wish dat i can juz forget bout all tis stuff but i can't seem to erase it from my mind...i sumtimes wish to god that he will juz take away my life..but when i am back in my senses..astaghfirullah al'azim is e frst word i say...i will tink dat wat point is it in me to lose my life towards all tis cruel ppl words...so now i am trying to chng everyting bad bout me to be positive....like Nadiah J always say..when ppl crictisize us...juz say alhamdullilah..as their blessing would all be given to us...so all u ppl out there who loves to ctictize me and oso other ppl..Juz stay away from me....i dun wanna hear anymore FUCKING words from ur smelly mouth....setan...
~shafiq~